Isolation...

I seem to be in a happy and cheerful mood and it is not coming from the fact that it is Thanksgiving tomorrow. Something has just been in the air and I am just a lot more positive right now. I really like it and I hope it stays this way for sometime.

Well yesterday started off rainy, but turned into a beautiful day. It was also one of those days that the temperature was all over the place. I walked to teacher my religious education class yesterday and I thought about taking my jacket off cause it was warm, but then when I was walking home it was colder. Last night it even snowed! Besides the weather, on my way back to my house yesterday I received a phone call that my sister in law had a heart attack. I want everyone to realize that she is only 30 years old, so I was shocked when I heard that. My first thought was "Oh God please let her be okay." I say this because she is the mother of my niece and nephew and my nephew was born two weeks ago. It was kind of scary. Then I heard it wasn't a heart attack, but my siblings are still posting on facebook that it was. She had a blood clot and from what I know they were able to dislodge it with blood thinners, but are trying to figure out why her blood is clotting. That's all I know and this is why I feel so isolated. Being the fact that I live all the way in New York and my family is all in Louisiana it is hard to know what's going on all the time. Now I don't expect them to call me every hour to let me know what is going on, however, when something like what my sister in law is going through happens, I hope to stay informed through phone calls and not facebook since I am family. I sort of feel like this is me ranting, but I need to get it off my chest. My dad called and I answered, but something happened and it got disconnected, he didn't even try calling me back. Grant it I could call him, but he called me. I feel isolated most times by my family. At times I want to tell them "hello I am here." I have learned not to have high expectations with them because I end up getting hurt. I should of figured that they weren't really going to keep me informed like they said they would. I guess they forget that I have feelings too. I would be really upset if something bad did happen and they forget about me completely.

Let's move back to some positive things shall we!

Went with my friend Dan to see Harry Potter last night. This one is not the most exciting one they have made, but it is leading up to the final movie, which will probably be awesome! I haven't read the book for this movie, but I do know what all happens. I have to attribute my positive spirit to my friend Dan. He is helping me bring enough balance to my life in the sense that he always wants to pray so I need to have my breviary with me. I provide him with some wisdom since I am older then he is. Things that I was doing before we start hanging out I have stopped and the stress and frustation I was feeling is all gone. Plus he is a trust worthy friend that I can talk too about anything. He knows some of my deep thoughts and secrets and that is because I trust him.

I also received word from my provincial yesterday that I can start working on an application to Loyola University down in New Orleans to start a master's program in the Fall of 2011. So I know where I will be living after the novitiate, but let's just finish the novitiate first. Makes me kind of excited about going back to school. Grant it I won't be looking forward to working on papers and this time around papers will be longer. Just seeing the courses I could possibly take makes me very excited. Already got part of the application done, now I just have to get to the paper work parts to it.

Today was just a day around the house. I prepared my part of the Thanksgiving meal, I am doing the sweet potatoes and my grandmother's Rocky Mountain. I somehow ended up cutting my finger, but it isn't bad. Also made a Rocky Mountain to take with me to a friends families house tomorrow where I also have been invited. Should be fun.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!